Diabetes is a part of who I am now and I wanted to share my story and experience with you about God’s mercy. It is not pretty and it shows that it’s my fault more so than genetics. Nevertheless, I hope that it encourages someone else to take better care of themselves. This battle will be waged with the help of God’s mercy. If you know of anyone who can benefit from reading this, pass it on…

Although I was diagnosed with diabetes in October 2017, I was in complete denial. I became pregnant one month after and for the duration of my pregnancy I took insulin twice a day, every day.

When I had my baby, I didn’t want or thought I needed to continue taking it.  So, without the doctor’s clearance, I went back to taking the pill (metformin) and quit insulin cold turkey.

That was a bad decision.

 

At first, everything was fine. I started feeling good and kept increasing the cheat meals until I was mostly eating unhealthy food. Then it got worse because I’m a really bad pill-taker. I would get good results when I checked my blood sugar and so I started skipping days. Days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months. I continued eating badly with no help from medication.

I don’t know what I expected to happen but one day all of my initial symptoms from my first diagnosis returned. Something else also alerted me that somehow it was worse this time around.

My feet and arms were numb and I would feel either extremely hot or extremely cold; this meant my nerves were being affected.

Now ladies have you ever wanted to be strong for your family and or friends? I did, I didn’t want to alarm them so I started eating better and exercising just a little but it was too late.

My sugar was already so high there was no way for me to reverse it myself.

I lost 30 pounds in less than 1 week (mostly water weight) and I had to tell my husband to take me to the hospital.

The night before I was admitted, I was so restless I couldn’t sleep. I kept tossing and turning and just felt so uncomfortable within my skin.

Later on, the doctor confirmed that it was good that I didn’t sleep before coming in because my sugar was so high. I could have easily slipped into a coma while I was sleeping and remained there or died.

 

 

But God…

 

I spent five long days in the hospital. 5 days of being bored and wanting to leave but God caught my attention. Nothing that happens to us is because of happenstance.

God allows us to go through certain situations because there is a reason. There really wasn’t anything else to do. I knew my family was scared because my sugars were over 600. But God had me right where he wanted me.

While sharing a room with a senior lady I saw how my relationship with God could be. We were both in the hospital for the same reason but the wisdom I garnered from her is priceless. Every morning at about 5 am she would talk to God, she would sing, recite scripture and she would pray.

It wasn’t an eloquent prayer with fancy words but it was heartfelt conversations with her Lord and Savior. Before and after she ate, she would talk to God, and before she went to sleep at night.

 

 

I asked her how long she had been in the hospital and she told me for a month or more.

As I was anticipating my release date my next question was, “don’t you want to leave”?

And her reply was, “No, why would I want to leave when they are taking care of me?

When I go out and my sugar goes high again then I will have to come back in.

So, I will just stay here for however long it takes for my sugars to be controlled.”

 

I sat back and my thoughts drifted to how often I want to run away from God’s protection.

 

Many times, we would rather struggle on our own and then ask, “Where are you God?” when he has been there all along.

God is standing right where you left him all you have to do is draw near to him, retrace your steps, and asks for forgiveness. When God tells you no, you better believe that it is for your good.

 

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It’s only because of God’s mercy that I’m here to tell of his goodness because if it had not been for the Lord on my side, I don’t know where I would be today.

My story isn’t over, I’m currently on insulin but God has been good. When God is protecting you, it might not look like protection to you. Maybe from your perspective, it looks like overprotection or that you’re just missing out but his ways are not our ways and he truly knows what is best.

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God knows best.

 

During this season I’ve realized that God is in control. When I’m steering the vessel, things are bound to get messy but with Jesus, as the captain, the mess won’t affect me unless he lets it and I’m alright with that.

 

Insight from God’s word:

 

Romans.8:28- And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.

Isaiah.41:10– Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

1 Corinthians.10:13- No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation, he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

 

Prayer:

 

Dear Jesus,

It is with a grateful heart that I offer praises to you for the marvelous work you have done in me and I ask that you would have your way. Help me to see the benefits of every situation when I forget that I’m not in control. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

 

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